i don't have any idea what i meant about the title..but.. ...i want someone to hug..to touch..to feel..I am sick and tired of the jerks i meet..and it is not on purpose..i mean..well.. if you are friendley..i mean genuine..why do guys want to just ..the ones i meet..just want to..fuck/feel and grab..i have goten that i am almost a hermit in my place..i do not give out numbers..address.. i know for a good reason..but hell..and then i must/do want a fuck every now and then..but heaven's above..it has been 18 months..my therapist knows i feel well ambivilant[sp?]..but..i guess almost being murdered..bashed and suffocated until ..just by chnce ..someone entered my room..

she won't give evidence..so..my word against his..case dropped after this past 123 months went by..saw him..and his friends..intervention order has lapsed..but he did not approach me....

damn the police..i was so angry ..well.. i'll pass that on later..but had to atend court for assaulting a police office with a projectile missle..it was in fact..a tomato salad that i threw on the floor in front of them..because they would not help me or tell me what was happening with my case..i ended up being charged with police assualt..but hey..it went to diversion court and i hve to pay $100 into a charity..[i chose the fred hollows eye charity] and then i have to send a letter of apology to the police officer.....i digress over things that are now history..but..am still angry..  to be continued...hehehe